"Clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right..."
I just read over all my good news from the posts previous. What a downer this one will be. :( This has been building up for at least a few months now. I wonder if we can be so happy in other aspects of our life that it outweighs the grief and frustration in another part of it? If so, then it looks like my abundance of joy everywhere else is stretching thin now. It can only bolster me for so much longer. Ever since our latest restructuring in my department I have become more and more dissatisfied with my work. The profession which I used to love so much has now become a job that makes me miserable. I can even feel it in my body; after 3 or so days of being out of the office I start to feel physically ill as I prepare to return. I do not think I am one for such melodramatics so surely this must mean something severe. Surely everyone else around me has noticed this? I have gone from the top of my game to rarely/barely achieving the minimum. And I know what it is: the office they h