Bellini-induced Brain Freeze

Feed the need I need to blog. Despite time constraints and laziness and everything I need to blog. So here I go. Whatever comes out comes out. Mijo's my idol, do you know that? I'm crazy about the guy, and not in a Fatal Attraction demented sort of way. He picked me up twice..TWICE...this holiday season, even if I didn't need picking up, he picked me up. He is like the bestest pal I haven't even met yet. :) On Christmas Eve I ran into mr. guy at the mall. It was far from a catastrophe 'cuz it was nice seeing him again, but it was also bittersweet as it was a reminder as to why I can't really be friends with him anymore. Oh well. "Oh well" she says? "Oh well" I say 'cuz the very next day (yes, Christmas Day) I got an unexpected call from Mijo! I haven't heard that boy's voice in ages! Our conversation, however brief, was a superhappyecstatic present to me! And then today, before all the chaos of New Year's Eve ...

I'm not going to make it, boss. Work and shopping has whipped me into a perpetual state of exhaustion...and we haven't even begun the whole family togetherness-madness. I think if Christmas preparations don't sap me of all my energy the holiday socials will certainly finish the job. I still love Christmas. One particular customer said: "I was watching you work while waiting to get some service (uh-oh, what did I do wrong?) and the entire time you had a smile on your face. I don't know how you can stay so poised and cheerful in all this chaos." What can I say? I honestly do love my job. It may be "beneath" my potential and the kind of pay I deserve, but I enjoy my time on the salesfloor. In all my retail positions over the years it's not the customers that irk me, usually I love them, and for sure I have fun with my coworkers...it's the management that always spoils it for me. So on the days when they leave me to just do my thang...

Housekeeping Wow, over 2 weeks without blogging. It's not that I didn't want to write down my thoughts and memories, it just takes up more time than I've got right now. I can't even explain where all my time goes...it just goes. Blondie had a sex-toy party (she had booked it at a booth when we were at the sex show. I hadn't intended on buying anything 'cuz money's extremely tight right now (Christmas and all) but I have been ridiculously self-indulgent the past month or so. While they did tempt me with that "cadillac of vibrators" that I fell in love with at the show I had enough mental presence to understand I just don't have $190 that I'm willing to fork over for such a thing. Even the lesser version at $75 was too rich for me...though I do admit that at $75 it was a steal based on what I've seen in the past. I did buy this stuff called "Flower Balm" (dumb name, I know) that heats and tingles your "flower....